October 25, 2010
Out of moon beams into Africa. A cave beyond ancient, Blombos Cave, on the Southern Cape. 72,000 years ago. Bifacial stone points, seashell necklaces, tools of bone, a cross-hatched chunk of ochre.
From a midden in the dunes, Homo sapiens outside the cave. Moon over what would one day be the Indian Ocean.
Earth, Africa, Apollo 11
Borges. Moon Mirror. Mirror Moon.
On the pampas. Buenos Aires. “O Poet of the Moon!” Under the Southern Cross, bitter juntas of the soul.
And so I find myself standing before what I’ve thought of for decades but have not been able to confront, write about. Thinking of it, year after year. An omnipresent obstacle, challenge, too hot to handle, stepping around it, sensing always its presence, why me, why me, who assigned this to me? A choice, an answer to a call, by default, delegation, destiny, long refused, evaded, a sense of futility overwhelming, filling me with a loathing for its very terms, find another scapegoat….
Mirror moon draws me in, and I cannot refuse to go, on to another continent… time come… its arduous demands, relentless, sacrifice of self, safety and content, all past, receding, far away now…